This too shall pass my friend...everything does...peaks and troughs--that's life...I feel the pain, know the pain, live the pain (some version of it anyway because we all perhaps share it because of our shared humanity)...but it is your strength that took you to the peak (no matter the crash, which you have survived)...your strength that guards her fledges...your strength that pours out with such beauty and eloquence...thank you for sharing...sending you much love...